…If only I was as smart as Mark Zuckerburg!!! I could be the investor of Facebook or maybe Bill Gates, he has more money, and I would be the richest man on earth, domestic flights? Never again. Life would be dandy, do people still use dandy??? Oh wait, I’m better than that, I could be me but be a billionaire child prodigy of maybe Space Technology? Nah, that’s too unrealistic, I could be a software investor bigger than both Microsoft and Facebook or maybe I could be a musician, part of band but I would be the Beyonce (adjective – meaning: centre, middle, first, last, everything of the band) in the band. This is what I call a Silicon Valley dream, it’s like an unquenchable thirst, it ensures that whatever we are doing we don’t enjoy to the full because well, life could be better, we could have been billionaires, instead of writing blog posts. The Silicon Valley dream lingers in many hearts and minds. This dream is so obsessive that, sleep is not a pre-requisite to having it.
Thinking about my life over the past few months, I realised that I did indeed do all the right things, I went to a good primary school possibly the best in the town, followed by a high school that was debatably the best in my province and then I went to a university that is arguably the best in my continent AND then worked for the top technology consulting firm in the ENTIRE world!!! Life couldn’t be better, it can’t be better!!! Wait, it can! I could have been a billionaire high school dropout with a part of Silicon Valley named after me, sigh.
Our hearts, if you will, are forever searching for something “more”. This search continues irrespective of the position we are in. Money can’t silence this search, nothing can. It’s almost like we are cursed to never be truly satisfied. The heart’s search is not really comparable to much, but it’s like in our hearts are an animal in heat but can’t find a mate to express this passion with. Because we don’t find any suitable mate, we subconsciously decide that the mate we are looking for is money or women / men or status or a better job, etc. I have been thinking about this search for a while and I can comfortably say it’s not a curse but a compass. C.S Lewis compares a similar hunger to that of a man’s hunger for bread, he says “A man’s physical hunger does not prove that that man will get any bread; he may die of starvation on a raft in the Atlantic. But surely a man’s hunger does prove that he comes of a race which repairs its body by eating and inhabits a world where eatable substances exist.” Similarly the heart’s nagging is indicating to us that there is more to life, than going to the best school, the best university and then working for the best company, and that more is not retiring at 35 either or being a billionaire entrepreneur. The heart’s longing keeps pointing us in the direction of “more”, however irrespective of how much more we acquire in this world we can never quench that thirst or silence the search. What the compass is trying to point us to is that what we long for is an eternal substance, however nothing is eternal in this world. So what we long for in not in this world as it is eternal!
Eternal is somewhat in concept like infinity, you remember infinity from maths and you had vowed to never deal it again, well its back. Infinity is special in maths, it’s generally reserved for what mathematicians can’t define things out of the realms of maths. One thing that I learnt from the infinity concept in maths is if I have numbers 2 or 3 or 4 or n and would like to convert any of them to infinity for whatever reason, I should combine (add/ subtract/ multiply/ etc) the number with infinity (n + ∞ = ∞, n – ∞ = ∞, n (any operator)∞ = ∞ etc). It’s the same with this longings of hearts, they will never be satisfied until we combine (come together, become one, etc) with someone eternal, who could satisfy this longings, someone “more” enough to end our search. Maybe finally we would start living life to the full without the distraction of our heart trying to point us to “more” so often.